Well writing once a week is proving to be quite a challenge for me! And this week is a sad post! Last week we found out that Grandma Low had taken a turn for the worse, and originally she was refusing to go to the hospital because she wanted to die! (That sounds a little morbid, but she has been ready to move on for quite a while now) Eventually Thursday they moved her into the hospital so she could be more comfortable and on some meds that would help with her breathing and the pain. (She had congestive heart failure and fluid on the lungs amongst other things) My mom and sister Mary were planning on going down to Cardston that weekend for my cousins mission farewell, but I had to work, so I wasn't planning on going. However when we found out how bad grandma was doing I really, REALLY wanted to go down and see her! Luckily my work found someone to replace me and I got to go down. Grandma was really unresponsive and it was hard to see her looking so frail. Just a few weeks ago when we were down there she seemed fine!! (Well as fine as someone can seem when they are on oxygen all the time) We got her to answer a question here and there, but it was difficult for her to talk - we'd more often get a little head nod than a verbal response. The further into the weekend we got, the more unresponsive she got. Grandpa is still up at the nursing home (in the Alzheimer's cottage) and we got to go over and visit him too! He really doesn't know whats going on, and can't carry on a conversation or even really answer questions, but when we start singing all the old songs he's taught us over the years he joins right in! Its so cute. Anyways, Sunday morning they take Grandpa over to the main building (where Grandma lived) for church. That morning when he woke up he said to the worker "Where's Zelma?" (Zelma is my Grandmas name) This is a big thing because he hasn't asked for her in months! Apparently he was also all agitated at church because she wasn't there. Their spirits are totally connected and he could definately tell something was up! Sunday we spent a while with Grandma, having a relief society lesson (one that was completely applicable to the situation (Grandma in the process of dying) - I forget right now what it was on, but I remember thinking WOW this is good one!) and visiting with her the best we could. The last things I remember Grandma saying are 'two more sips of Ensure' (while she was eating her lunch of sweet potato and lime sherbet - she loved her some sherbet! and the last one 'yes' (as in yes i have to go to the bathroom). Funny how those two things stick out in my mind. Sunday after Tanishas farewell (my cousin who is going on a mission) we went and packed and then went to say our last goodbyes to grandma. We also sang a few songs, the only one which I can remember begin "Homeward Bound". My sisters Amy and Mary sing that song together really well and there will be a recording of it at sometime in the funeral/slideshow. Because Amy is on a mission and plus, it would just be too hard to sing it at her funeral. We could barely make it through it at her bedside! It was hard to say goodbye! I won't write the things I said to her, but she was a really good Grandma and a really, really good person. She's the only grandma I've ever known (my dads mom died before I was born) and I'm really going to miss her. She died Monday morning at around 6:05am, and we're sure she's fist-pumping in heaven, because Mary said that's what she would do whenever one of her friends died. She was so excited for them to have moved on and she was anxiously awaiting her turn! And now she's right there with them. Monday morning my aunts went over to tell grandpa that grandma had moved on. He again asked where Zelma was and they told him that she had moved on to the next life and that he should hurry up and join her. He responded with a "Ok! 1, 2, 3 lets go!" and also with something like "well when you've done all that you can do you just have to go!" I love my grandparents and the great examples they've been to me!
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| The last picture of Grandma (on the right) we have (not at the hospital) Family Day long weekend 2013. She's so cute. |
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| And I know I put this one in last week, but I just love my grandparents! |
